lettuce & laudanum

Well, so much for the laudanum - not much sleep last night.

Tho' that was partly due to a sneak cough attack. You know the kind of tickly cough that lurks dormant until the second your head hits the pillow - or, worse, the second you feel yourself falling from consciousness into sleep!!! and then it starts ticking and coughing and wakes you up again..... Hate it, hate it

So - about 3 hours sleep last night - and shattered today. I've been debating all day whether to take a sleeping pill tonight or not - or whether to take some syndol instead! makes me sleepy.
Red pill or blue pill to enter the Matrix?
But now my cold is getting worse and i have work all day tomorrow, so will take a sleeping pill..... sigh.

At least it means a night off from the lettuce! i don't mind so much, but every night? :(

I wont be blogging for a few days because we have a weekend away with all my family, at a guest house in Cambridgeshire - which should be really nice, and might be nice in some ways, but is vastly complicated because i'm in the midst of a personal crisis (hence the prozac and sleeping problems) - which some of them know about and some of them don't.

And its my wedding anniversary this weekend, (lots and lots of years) .
And who knows if there will be one next year.

ah well, will update next week.....